My world has changed
Do you remember the opening scene of “Lord of the Rings”? Where Galadriel says : “The world has changed. I feel it in the water. I feel it in the earth. I smell it in the air.”
That quote has been fluttering around in my head all morning.
But not in a “doom is coming” kind of way, fortunately.
COVID has been a real gift for me. It has given me permission to get inside my cocoon for a whole year. It’s been wonderful. I understand this may not be the experience most of you had, but that’s how it has been for me personally.
I started as a spiritual seeker a long time ago, over twenty years now. And my “seeking” took a very different turn when I saw Michael Neill’s Ted Talk : Why aren’t we awesomer.
In his Ted Talk, Michael talks about the Kanizsa Triangle.
He asks the audience : “Who can see the bold white triangle in the middle?”.
And of course most of the people in the audience raise their hand.
He then goes on by saying : “you”re all making it up, there is no white triangle. […]
We make up something, we can all see it and it’s not there.
I wonder if that might have implications to how we live our lives”.
We’re making it all up
And that’s when it hit me.
We’re making it all up.
Something inside me knew that I could stop searching.
From then on I have been exploring this inside out understanding Michael talks about. And in and of itself, you could say that that is searching as well.
But this search had a very different feel to it. It was more a discovery than a search.
Solving a sudoku and walking in the park
Kind of like the difference between solving a sudoku and walking in the park.
When I’m solving a sudoku (granted, I’m not very good at it) I’m searching, thinking, counting and analyzing. It’s hard (well, for me it is anyway) and it takes effort. And I get frustrated when I get it wrong and need to start all over (cos how do you cross out and then put a new number in, there’s not enough room … urgh)
Then there’s walking in the park, I’m open and curious. Sometimes I notice a squirrel. This is effortless. It either happens or it doesn’t. And I don’t beat myself up or get frustrated if I haven’t noticed a squirrel.
These or two examples of how we can “use” our mind. One is not better than the other. It just serves a different purpose.
I learned about Syd Banks and how he had an enlightenment experience. He “saw” how the human experience worked and spent the rest of his life sharing it with others.
Hearing and reading my mentors’ words was very helpful. But they nudged me, motivated me to look and share what I saw. That’s when things started to change.
Falling in love with life
I saw how I made up that life is supposed to be hard, that you’re supposed to suffer to be worthy of succes.
I saw how I made up what love is supposed to look like. If my partner really loves me, surely he would behave differently.
I saw how I made up that my work was frustrating, that I could never be happy in my job untill I was free to be me and do “my thing”.
I saw how I made up that there was something wrong with me, that I needed fixing.
I saw that there is an energy behind all life that supports us,
I saw that life can be easy if I don’t overuse my analytical and rational thinking.
I saw that love is just a space of no judgement, and if I can listen to my partner, my friends, my clients from that space, magical things can happen.
I saw that I am innately whole, that I am not broken and that there is nothing wrong with me. That I just get caught up in my thinking from time to time, and I do the best I can with the thinking I have in the moment.
I fell in love with life.
Now , if you’re in this conversation already, this will not sound very new.
But, even though I have been in this conversation for about 5 years, it has never looked as new to me as these past couple of weeks.
If you have no idea which conversation I am talking about, but you’re curious and would like to explore this further with me, let me know!
I LOVE being in this conversation, sharing what I see and discovering together what it means to have a human experience.
Cos if falling in love with life is possible for me,
then it is most certainly possible for you.